Look Doc. Here I am now listen. Pay close attention. IF, if; I remind you of some things, if I do: and the standard typical ordinary comments I make are not in accordance with official medically defined and legally sanctioned reality, would you mind? I'll go ahead here for after 3 or 4 decades of this stuff being crammed down my throat, I'm sick of it - ie - - fed up. And that, good doctor is the only reason I have to write this. Files on me should clearly indicate I didn't initiate any corrective behavioral action or look for any special attention, or complain to anyone about any of my own personal and private physical or mental health, yet; except as a requirement by medical professionals. My view right now is that my opinion of my self is put under extreme scrutiny by specialized experts, minute by minute - who use secret technology to change my thought patterns for the purpose of altering the values of mankind in general. I am the example meant by the establishment of institutional individuals they expect science to make us all like. A biological experiment. I walk among others. I walk, and people notice. Talk and people see. Think and their life changes.